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My existence...
Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.
1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.
2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.
3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.
4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.
5) i also fell asle
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Stand Against Suicide
I know the pain is perhaps unbearable,
But darling, please put down the blade.
Release your emotions through tears and smiles,
Rather than dreading these days.
Do it for the little girl, whose mother can’t be there,
Or for the boy whose father drank too much.
For the boy who can’t sit in elementary school,
Because the bruises from Daddy hurt to touch.
For the teenage girl lying face down in her bed,
Thinking, why can’t it all be done?
For the elderly man looking up at the stars,
Counting the days one by one.
Do it for the children who wonder, does it end?
For the ones who feel left on their own.
For the ones who think, maybe it wouldn’t be so hard
If I didn’t feel so left alone.
And finally, do it for one other person,
The person in front of these words.
Because you’ll never know how it gets better
When focusing on pain and hurt.
Live one more day, dear, for them and for you,
And I swear to you, problems will fade.
I know, for right now, it’s p
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Problems
Hatred, whether based on
Your looks
Your personality
Your smile
Your tears
Your reality
Your fantasies
Your happiness
Your depression
Your honesty
Lies
Feelings
Dreams
Goals
Wishes..
Hatred,
Hatred is the problem.
Not you.
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Mama's Eyes
She said to her daughter,
"Goodnight."
And her little girl
No longer little
Looked up in her mama's eyes,
And said,
"Goodbye."
And Mama thought nothing of it,
Till her little girl
No longer little
Never looked up in her mama's eyes
Again.
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A letter to my watchers
Smiling through your pain,
Till the wounds stop bleeding.
Running through your clouds
Once the sky stops raining.
Never saying never,
Going faster, stronger, better
Even when the
Raindrops seem to fall down forever.
Till the birds start to sing, and
Happiness overwhelms you,
And a smile takes over your face
Now and eternally.
Surviving through the pain,
Until the wounds stopped bleeding.
It never seemed it would end,
Crying, screaming, dying...
Indeed it did, it
Died away..
Even when the raindrops would never end.
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This Thing We Call Depression
There's a story I'd like to tell,
A story of a girl who was diagnosed.
Diagnosed with a terrifying thing,
Something that would threaten her life for years to come.
Something that she could never escape,
No matter how she ran,
No matter how she struggled.
This diagnosis was a horrific thing to the girl,
Although, not surprising at all.
The symptoms had swallowed her for days,
Weeks,
Months.
Months of this thing inside of her.
This thing that we call
Depression.
There are people who tell her,
"You're only sad."
However, that isn't the case.
See, she was never diagnosed with sadness.
Everyone knows sadness.
She was never diagnosed with emotion.
Everyone knows emotion.
She was never diagnosed with temporary heartbreak,
Unhappiness,
Broken dreams,
Anger,
Grief,
Loneliness...
Everyone knows all those things.
She was diagnosed with something much, much worse.
Since then, she's suffered with such a terrible thing...
Not temporarily,
But for days..
Weeks..
Months.
Months of this <
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Dear Daddy, I hate you.
Dad,
There's something I want you to know,
Because, hey dad..
I'm not stupid.
I know you're not going to be here
Anymore.
Something I wanted to say..
I hate you.
I hate how you've been there for me.
I hate how you made me who I am today.
I hate how you've always inspired me,
And I hate how you've been the best father anyone could ask for.
I hate how I know you enough to know exactly what you're going to say.
I hate how you know me the same way.
I hate how you love your family more than anything.
I hate how you've been strong just so we don't feel weak,
And I hate how you never gave up on us.
On your family.
On your daughters.
On me.
I hate knowing that it's going to be
Over.
I'm going to miss you, Dad.
... Daddy, I'm going to miss you.
And I hate you for that.
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Gun Within The Mirror
It feels as if my reflection
Points a gun at its own head,
As my bullet shoots the mirror
And paints the floor with red,
And it feels as if my gun
Just isn't steady in my hand,
Because darling, when I jump off cliffs,
Do you think I always land?
It feels as if the razor blade
Might be my only friend,
And it feels as if the broken glass
Might soon begin to bend,
Because my reflection is distorted, love.
Can't you see that, love, can't you see?
I'm pointing a gun at the mirror,
And the mirror points back at me.
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Well, Honey...
You think depression is a choice?
Well, honey,
Do you think I choose
To feel worthless?
To feel empty,
To feel sick to my stomach because I think too much?
To feel broken,
Lost,
Constantly confused...
To feel hopeless,
Useless,
Stressed out,
Angry at myself..
To feel suicidal, sometimes without knowing a reason?
To feel the need to lay in bed all day,
Without moving a muscle,
Because getting up would just make me want to fall back down?
Honey,
Depression is never a choice.
You don't choose depression.
Depression chooses you.
We don't need ignorant people to choose us, too.
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Before you kill yourself...
Before you kill yourself,
Remember just one little thing.
There are places to go,
Where you have never been before.
How can you be sure those places are bad?
There are things to see,
Things you have never seen before.
How can you be sure those things are ugly?
There is a new tune to hear,
Something you've never heard before.
How can you be sure that tune is scary?
There are words to be said,
Things that have never been said before.
How can you be sure those words are hurtful?
There are dreams to be imagined,
Things you have never dreamed before.
How can you be sure that they are nightmares?
Darling, please don't give up.
Please stay strong.
And please.
Don't let go.
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It's Not Polite To Lie.
Hush, sweetie,
Do not let their judgments define you.
Do not let their hatred construct you.
Do not let their words build you.
Hush, sweetie,
Do not let your sorrow swallow you.
Do not let your pain devour you.
Do not let your loneliness change you.
Hush, sweetie,
Stop telling yourself lies,
Stop screaming in a whisper that you're
Ugly
Inside and out.
Stop telling yourself that you're
Worthless.
Stop telling yourself that you're
Broken,
And hopeless,
And damaged.
Hush, sweetie...
It's not polite to lie.
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Secrets...
Secrets are things that people won't tell,
Despite the greatest truths
Hidden within them.
Secrets are things that people lie to
Cover up,
In fear of you finding out what's
Real.
Sweetie, here are a few secrets
That I feel must be shared,
Because they've been kept for
Far
Too
Long.
You are beautiful. You are stronger than your weaknesses.
You are unique. You are different. You are perfect.
You are not defined by your sadness, nor are you defined by the stereotypes.
You are not broken, despite the the scars and missing pieces.
You are powerful.
Wonderful.
Marvelous.
You are a fighter.
And, darling,
I know no one has whispered
These things to you.
But remember,
The only things that people won't tell,
Are the secrets.
And that's because the secrets are true.
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So it has been a while since I have posted anything on here... and it has been forever since I have submitted a drawing. So I'm going to the old doodle pad, and going to work on getting some graphite down. And hopefully you guys will be seeing some new stuff soon! Thank's for reading. :iconsmile--plz:
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Jolanda
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Im just me

Current Residence: Somewhere, Mn, USA
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Favourite style of art: The pretty kind XP
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Favourite cartoon character: Arnold!
Personal Quote: The meaning of Life is to Live Life.~ Me
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I-AM-3RR0R Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013
Thanks for the favorite.
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evettejo Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's no problemo brotha :)
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Have you seen our stock yet? Come to Obliviate-Stock and feel free to use our work as you wish but carefully read and follow the rules!! :deviation:

Feel free to ask us anything you want, anytime, and good work! :ahoy:
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n_n Happy early B-day!!
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Hello there! :wave:
Your work has been featured in my monthly stock use journal [link]
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specialdreamer Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2012  Student General Artist
:iconthe-beauty-of-art: is glad to have you in the group. If you have any questions please ask me. The rules are posted on the front page if you need them. We are now in the process of a spring photography and icon contest! Check out the rules for it if you'd like to participate! Thanks for joining!! :happybounce:   
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Thank you for the watch :-)
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evettejo Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
you are very welcome.
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Hello there,
As the founder of Any-Art-All-Art, I would personally like to thank you for joining our group.
I hope you enjoy being part of our growing group and enjoy sharing your art with us.
I would like to inform you, that we are a succsessful group, getting over two hundred and ninety views on our second day of running, and over twenty members.
I am not a very well known artist myself, but even I have gained page views and favorites through my group.

I would like to thank you again, for choosing to join us.

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evettejo Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! Thanks for the warm invite :hug: Good luck running such a big group! xD
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